Rest In Peace Java

Today is such a sad day for our family! Java, our chocolate lab, passed away! Jeff had noticed that she may have not been feeling well last night when she did not want to eat! She would always scarf down her food when it was time to eat! Jeff was leaving to pick up some lunch for us today when he noticed Cooper at the fence wimpering. He saw that Java was lying down near the fence and called her name...no response. He then noticed that she was not breathing. I was getting Gabby into her high chair inside at the moment and had no clue what was going on. Jeff walked in and looked at me! It was that look that I am sure we all have gotten that tells us something is not right. He told me what had happened and I lost it! So many feelings went through my head. Dad came over and helped Jeff take her away.

As I sit here so emotional, I am thinking to myself, "come on Katie...get it together. It is just a dog"! But, I think it is so hard because this was the dog that I begged Jeff for right after Ellie died. We got her from a co worker of mine. She replaced some sadness that I was so incredibly overwhelmed with. She was happy, full of energy and Cooper and she got along so well together. She made me feel better during this time of need and I felt today as if I was reliving her homecoming into our family all over again. She smelled by belly every single day when I was pregnant with Gabby. Crazy I know...but dogs sense all kinds of things. She was closer to Gabby than Cooper is and I wonder if this was why. I also feel so incredibly guilty to my co worker that gave us this dog. I don't know why...but I do. I also wonder little things like, will Gabby realize that when she says, "dogs" and points to the window that she will only see 1 dog now instead of 2. I am sad that her collar is on the garage floor at the moment and sad that Cooper looks lost in the backyard. I am upset that Jeff has got to be feeling sad too because he had to bury her at his old house with the multiple animals that he grew up with. We loved Java and know that she is in a better place now(Doggy heaven), but she will always be in our hearts and we will never forget her!